i signed in to facebook tonight, a last-ditch attempt to bore myself to sleep. this was very stupid of me.

first, i am overwhelmed by all the people i am suggested to "friend". second, i am upset with myself for only being ambitious when my peers may be watching--how many of them are in ivy league law schools? adjunct lecturers? professors? and i? i am consciously unemployed.

will i ever get my shit together? or should i name my problem as profession?

the best part of this is that none of this matters, but i worry over it anyways.